Lord, where is my rest?July 27, 2013 - Author: Bernadette Saddik
The responses to the questions are my own interpretations and are not the Word of God. It reflects my own internal dialogue and contemplations in prayer in an artistic sense, not an actual conversation or Divine speech.
…of the nightmares. Cold sweats, can’t escape. Of the enemy I cannot see, but when I see it in my dreams, I never want to see it again. Of the enemy I face at night.
…of the pain in blinking. How can that possibly hurt? Of the fire tearing through my face when I smile. How is that fair?! Is that what you’ll throw at me, you cruel disease? I can’t enjoy the simple pleasure of smiling!
…of feeling the need to be strong for others. Because that’s what everyone expects of me, right? Except I don’t feel like doing that at all. I’m supposed to be strong. I don’t feel strong. I don’t even want to be strong. But isn’t that wrong? I’d say I want to go back to sleep, but for those awful nightmares.
…I don’t know what I want. I want to do everything, but I don’t want to do anything. I’m tired. Is that bad of me to say?
My child, I know you are tired. I know it intimately, that it hurts. It hurts a lot. Was I not exhausted carrying the cross on my shoulders? Was I not wiped out by the burden of all that is evil? (Luke 23:26-49)
My child, let not the dreams disturb you. Though evil taunts you, attempting to trick you into fear and despair, let Me respond. Trust Me, this is not a battle you want to fight, nor can you. This is as all battles–in My realm. (Psalm 55:22-23)
My child, keep blinking! I count every hair on your head–do you not think I also count every time you blink? And for each stab of pain will come a glorious wave of serenity. (Luke 12:6-8)
My child, if nothing else, in your heart smile! Your spirit is safely tucked away with My Spirit. Evil cannot approach you there–as much as it will try–if you take solace in My arms. (Psalm 139:7-12, Romans 8:5-13)
My child, you are right–you are not strong! Nor must you be. I am strong for you. This is one of My gifts of salvation. (2 Corinthians 12:7-10)
Think not of how others perceive you. I’ll work on their hearts as I work on yours. Concern yourself only with nestling in My open shoulders. (Luke 12:24-26)
My child, this life of yours is a stage of impending victory. The decision of ‘what to do’ is very little. Keep living and loving in Me, and you will be fulfilled. Because I’ve done the work. I always have and always will win. (Hebrews 12:1-3, 1 Thessalonians 5:8-10)
My child, seek, ask, believe–salvation is yours. Peace and comfort are yours. (Romans 5:1-2)
For I AM risen! (Matthew 28)
“‘Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.'” Matthew 11:28-30 NIV