PositivityJuly 3, 2013 - Author: Bernadette Saddik
What I am about to say next may or may not resonate with your experiences. However, this is the perspective of one physical chronic illness fighter and how I get through the day without losing myself. I pray that it helps you understand a loved one or helps you in your own journey. I write this to give some insight to the situation.
In my own experience, it is not possible to go through one moment to the next without some deep joy. Joy that comes from One, only One, enough as One source, our heavenly Father.
Without this joy, the knowledge that the next moment will hurt, and the next and the next and the next and the next…is beyond comprehension of the will to keep moving forward.
Resentment, frustration, anger, betrayal, and yes, hatred, fleetingly taunt the soul. But, joy provides the smooth glass to which these feelings cannot stick.
That is not to say that this, negativity, if you will, does not put up a fight to stay as residences.
It takes a lot of energy to fight. But, I keep fighting. Partly because I know that letting it overrule me takes more energy.
It is a blessing when one’s path in life is not to dig out of the pit of despair. And I am very grateful that this has not been a step in my journey. It certainly is not because I have done anything in particular that has made me ‘successful’ in dealing with the negative feelings. Each person has his own walk in life.
(I say feelings instead of attitude because one can definitely have negative feelings not associated with perspective. Simply thinking happy thoughts when ill will not make the pain go away. It is important to keep up spirits when possible, but when it hurts, it hurts!)
Ultimately, I battle each and every day not to lose hope, motivation; not to let the pain overwhelm me into hiding in bed all day. I don’t always achieve this goal. But, the tools I use to prevent it from overcoming me are genuine–as all of God’s gifts are. They may not necessarily prevent me from “walking through the valley of the shadow of death” (Psalm 23:4 KJV), but God never promised that we wouldn’t.
He promised that He would not leave us. That after all this pain and suffering and emotional turmoil, we will be “crossed over from death to life” (John 5:24 NIV).
I fear that unless one goes through it, it is difficult to grasp the gravity of the situation each second of the day presents. Yet, if this is the only way to understand the dilemma of the chronically ill, then I wish no one had to understand, and that those who don’t never do.
“Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and He shall sustain thee: He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.” Psalm 55:22 KJV